Being a Stepmom

I don't really use this blog anymore. Facebook is just easier! But, Kelly's Korner is doing a link-up for stepmoms today, and I thought it might be good for me to share a little of my story in hopes of getting much needed support. I can't think of any friends that I have that are even divorced, much less a stepmom. I grew up in an extremely conservative church and marrying someone with children has caused somewhat of a rift, even though biblically he had every right to leave his marriage.

I have no idea what I'm doing right now. In all honesty, I have never felt further from the Lord. I will not pretend that I'm living the dream right now, people. I had absolutely NO idea that this would be so hard when I married in 2006. Then the kids were 9 and 5 and it seemed so easy. They were crazy about me and I about them. Some resentment, some jealousy: it all seemed so manageable. Now they are 15 and 11, and we have added two of our own. My husband is the primary residential parent, and the kids are at our home for some time every day. My husband is a fireman which has left me with a lot of responsibility. Even on those days their mom doesn't pick them up until around 6.

I know teenage years are hard. I was difficult as a teenager. I have never felt more alienated from my step-daughter. My stepson has developed all sorts of problems: a learning disability, ADD, ODD, mood disorder/anxiety. I can't even go into all the issues because it is 100% overwhelming.

I post because I am overwhelmed and I honestly don't know how much longer I can do this. Please comment if you feel you can help me! I really appreciate it!